This is it! After weeks of researching, consulting, praying and pondering I am ready to launch this blog!
I am sitting outside of a Hampton Inn in Rolla, MO this morning. Kevin and I are on our way to Joplin MO later today to help out with the relief efforts there in the wake of the most devastating tornado in over 50 years. I will post pictures and thoughts on the blog tomorrow.
So, why “Living Out Loud?”
First because it is how I have lived my life, apparently from my first breath of life! My parents both say that I was a gregarious child from the get-go. I rarely walked into a room, I bounced, twirled or danced into the room. If I had a thought, I shared the thought. If I had a question, I asked it. If I didn’t like something, I told you. If I LOVED something, I told you, loudly. As a grade schooler all my teachers commented that I was an excellent student, fun to have in the classroom but needed to work on talking less. My 4th grade teacher went so far as to say that perhaps not everyone wanted to know what I knew in the moment. It wasn’t until college that I learned there was a word for my personality: EXTROVERTED! So I wasn’t a freak of nature after all. I process everything out loud. Most of the time I don’t even know what I think, feel or believe until I can say it out loud and it is especially helpful to say it out loud to someone else and get feedback.
Second because, until recently, my career was in the helping profession as a Pastor who labored primarily in the fields of helping others heal from the pain and darkness that leads to addiction and bondage of all kinds. Since I have overcome addiction and my own personal demons resulting from much childhood darkness and pain through the wonderful grace and mercy of Jesus Christ I have been compelled to live my life out loud before others in the hope that they may also find the same freedom and life in Jesus that I have.
Third because I am no longer on my same career path but still long to live my life out loud so that others might find freedom and life I thought, why not blog it? Perhaps someone will find one small nugget that will help them in this life time.
And why that silly tag line?
Well, I do love music, movies and books so I gave you a song, movie and book reference. God has spoken to me through all of these genres and I intend to share out loud with you every time He speaks through one of them. Words, titles, phrases, names have meaning to me. Also, I weirdly spend time thinking about the last line of the last page of the book of my life and what it would say. What will Jesus’ final word be about me? I hope with all my soul that the last line of the book of my life is something like this: “Well done Pamela Sue! That was a story worth reading!”
I am also in a season of tremendous transition, both personally and within my immediate family. For me, leaving the job that I adored as a Pastor serving people that I loved threw me into such an identity crisis I wasn’t sure who I was any more. I had so identified myself as a pastor within a certain denomination that I lost focus. So, I have literally been in the process of losing my religion these past few months. Shedding the religious trappings that had become my identity and discovering who I am meant to be in Jesus Christ.
In the process I have rediscovered my first love: Jesus Christ. I am finding out who He really is and I am super excited to share these discoveries with you on the blog.
BUT, the road I have traveled has been one of the most painful and challenging roads I have ever been on, and I have traveled a few painful roads in my life’s journey. On the one hand, I wouldn’t trade what I have learned and am learning for any amount of money, on the other hand, I wouldn’t wish this path on anyone.
Just to let you know, I am currently reading several books on transition and one of the best books on Revelation I have ever read so I will be sharing my thoughts and insights with you. I will have a list of the books and authors on the blog soon.
Well, we are ready to load the jeep and head to Joplin. As promised I will blog tomorrow about this experience.